I don’t know how to start this, which is odd since the hardest thing for me, to this day, is finishing something that I pretend to work on. I don’t want to seem as though I am pessimistic, but aren’t we all at some point? These past few years I keep learning new things about myself and who I am. I’m still unsure about a lot of things. I am accepting outcomes and trying to be more optimistic. For those who aren’t aware, and I am not one to ever discuss this since I am still trying to accept it, but I suffer from depression and social anxiety; have so for most of my life.
That’s not what I am here to talk about. This has to deal with potential relationships and my pessimistic view on, “waiting for someone.” I don’t mean this in, waiting for the one, because boys and girls, stay single and wait. It will suck but the ending is Heaven.
I mean waiting for someone who is in an on and off relationship or whatever you want to call that. Those people are never worth it. Never wait for anyone. If they can’t give you their all, they don’t and never will deserve all of you. You may think they are the one or any you’d be happy, in bliss. But no. It isn’t worth it. That isn’t what happiness or love is at all.
There is only one person who waiting for and that is you. A good chunk of people don’t know who they are and think that they can have healthy relationships but in my small experience, that isn’t the case. If you can’t take time for you and love you, you will never be happy. Your happiness in a relationship will be a selfish one and you will never truly acknowledge it.
This sad blurp from me is probably incoherent and most people probably won’t understand. This is why I need a small note pad in my car. My ideas are more lively then.
One tweet I read yesterday is stuck in my head at the moment and I would like to share with you all:
"It’s never your successful friends posting the inspirational quotes."- @DamienFahey
OH MY GOD
Well, that was unexpected.
whAT EVEN IS GOING ON>??
ok I’ve seen this like 8 times on my dash and ignored it but now I finally watched it because I was like “okay this has to be SOMETHING good because everyone I fucking follow is reblogging it”
I was not fucking let down at all.
What has this website done to me?